Minor hysteria...

I had a bit of a conniption fit a bit ago. It involved my belly button. I hate the things. That commercial a few years ago with the belly buttons singing "I'm Coming Out" was the worst commercial ever conceived. So- I was standing in the kitchen putting our new juicer together and absently rubbing my belly, when I noticed my belly button. I usually pay it no attention, except for the other day when I realized it had a weird indentation forming in it. But I noticed it tonight because.... IT IS STARTING TO POKE OUT!!! NOOOOOO!!!!!! Not yet! This cannot be happening. I figured I had until at least 7 months before I had to worry about it. But it is definitely on it's way out of the hole it lives in, and I freaked out. I was crying and laughing and screaming- Randy thought I was crazy. He has been teasing me mercilessly about it, and now it can only get worse. Ew. I am NOT happy about this. Gross, gross, gross!!!

Hormones...

I've been having some conflicting thoughts lately. Mainly fleeting ones, at that, but conflicting none the less. One moment I'll look at my belly (which for now I wish was larger but I know in a few months I'll want to shoot myself for EVER thinking I wanted it larger) and be so excited and happy about being pregnant. Then, a moment later, I'll think, "What in the hell is wrong with me?? Why did I ever want to be pregnant, and put my body through this, and what am I gonna look like and feel like in 4 months or so? Can I take it back?" Then, it's almost like I come back to my senses and wonder why I just thought those things. And I'll start thinking about finding out the sex (3 weeks to go!) and holding the little newborn and introducing him/her to everyone and everything else and I'm back to excited mode. I guess this is normal? I've heard the hormones are crazy and I haven't had any major crying episodes or anything (except for OnStar commercials for some reason) so I guess if this is how they are going to affect me I should just be grateful and get used to it.
That said, besides some headaches lately, I'm doing fine. I get a pain in my lower back if I sit on a hard surface for too long, and sleeping is getting interesting now. And if the peeing every 5 minutes doesn't stop soon I'm going to go insane! Sorry. A few gripes.
I got my hair cut and colored this weekend. It looks SO much better. I went to a real salon and it was totally worth it- the girl did a great job. So, a shoutout to Rose at The Spa by Mitchell's. I actually look older now, so maybe people won't see me in Wal-mart and wonder why a 14 year old is pregnant. Let's hope, anyway. =)

Woosh, woosh, woosh...

I had a Dr. appt. today, and we got to hear the heartbeat!!! It was really neat- she found it almost immediately and I was amazed at how well you could hear it- the little bean is only about 4 inches long, after all! The rate was around 150 bpm, which is good. That was basically the entire appointment, then I had blood drawn for the quad screen, which is weird to me, because all it tells you is the odds of having a chromosome issue- I guess it can help ease fears, but it can also make them worse if the result comes back that the odds are worse. Nothing definite, which really, nothing is until the kid is born.

I have my big ultrasound appointment in 4 weeks- Sept. 5th. I am VERY excited and can't wait to find out the sex- I sure hope kiddo is in the right position- that would be agony if not!

I haven't gained any weight. I am back up to my starting weight after losing several pounds. My belly is expanding and STILL invading my bladder's space, but no weight gain, which I guess is good.

It is hotter than HELL here this week- it was 103 today with a heat index of 114- and the humidity didn't even get over 40%- I guess it could be worse. Carpool has been horrible, and the people I work with are making me stay inside, which makes me feel worse for them, 'cause I can take the heat if I have to, but they won't let me. We can't take the kids out to recess so they are off the wall. I have NEVER looked more forward to fall than I do this year. I keep having these thoughts of crisp air, changing leaves, breezes coming through open windows, wearing long sleeves, the state fair (mmmmm... fair food....) and they are like mirages- I SO long for those things right now- maybe hormones acting up? I hope we have a long fall and mild winter. I'm afraid we'll be bringing the baby home from the hospital in an ice storm or something! I was brought home during an ice storm in 1978 and the power was out, so they used hot Coke bottles in my bassinet to keep me warm. I'd probably use warm kitties to keep the baby warm!=)
I had a whole rant about baby stuff written, then the internetz messed up and it got erased, so I'll save it for another post. At least the cable guy came and fixed the modem...

A gratuitous belly shot

Or lack thereof. This is me at 13 weeks:

Out of the first trimester- YAY!

I am now almost out of trimester 1, and I could not be happier about it. I have been feeling much better this past week, and have been able to eat more and actually gain a tiny bit of weight instead of losing it. I'm also starting to show (at least to other people and not just me!) and I've had a couple people touch my barely-there belly. It didn't bother me the way I thought it would, either. Granted, they were people I knew, but anyway...
I've got to get my house cleaned up this weekend. I am DONE WITH CLASSES, hopefully forever, so I should have so actual free time now. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself.
I also finished HP, in a record 8 hours. All I will say is that it turned out the way it should have. I am sad that there will be no more, but at least there are 2 more films to see.
I think I have come close to deciding on a decor for the nursery. I had said that I was going to do dragonflies, and despite the selection you can find on the internet, there just haven't been any that I've really loved. So I saw this at BabiesRUs, and I really like it! It is simple, which is what I want, and doesn't have any silly, busy patterns and isn't too cartoony or anything. It looks really good on a black crib, too, which I wouldn't have thought I'd like, but may be a possibility. My problem is going to be finding a crib that I can easily reach into, since I'm so freakin' short. I'd rather not have one that has a side that lowers, because they seem to be a pain to lower, but I may have to. Here's the link to the little bee bedding that I like- the mobile is absolutely adorable!!! http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2266594&cp=2255986.2256244.2256251.2256261&view=all&parentPage=family

It's Harry Potter Day!

Yay! I leave in a few minutes for Target to get my book. Then I will spend the rest of the day reading- so that I can get schoolwork done tomorrow. I am excited and sad at the same time. No more HP after this... =(
I am feeling much better. This was a very short-lived cold, which I am quite thankful for.
We went to Babies R Us last night just to look around. They have SOOOOOO much freakin' baby stuff! It is overwhelming. I'll never be able to decide what I want. I feel like there's so much research you have to do on safety of stuff and whatnot. Can't I just pick the stuff that looks good?
So, I gotta go get a Hogwarts fix. Yay!

As I crest over the top of Millenium Force...

310 feet above the ground, prepared to drop and "Ahhhhhhhhhhh!" Back down the roller coaster hill. Unfortunately, in my world of the roller coaster metaphor to pregnancy, the ride is not so enjoyable as it is in real life. (Boy do I miss being able to ride coasters.)
I have a head cold. Like, snot out the wazoo, sinus headache, lightheaded, can't breathe misery. I didn't think I would make it through work today. As the day went on I felt a bit better, but I crashed in the bed when I got home. I can't really take anything good for it, either. I need to do some work, especially since the last HP book comes out this weekend, and I know I'll be reading until I finish it once I get it. I just can't get motivated.
On a HP note, I have seen the new movie twice already. Randy took me to see it opening day, then we went with Grant and Sherry this weekend. It was good. Umbridge is incredible, and the Luna Lovegood character was great, too. I don't like that they had to cut so much out- I would rather had to sit through 3-4 hours if I had to, just to get more in. Anyway, go see it. That's a direct order.
My 2 year anniversary is Wednesday! I totally forgot it was coming up until this past weekend- Randy has made surprise dinner reservations for us! Looking forward to that! I sure hope I feel better...

Feeling a bit better!

The past few days I have been doing better on the coaster of queasiness! I've still had a few moments, but I think I've been able to eat more, which I needed to do. However, I have a little boy in my new class who BATHES in Polo cologne each morning. Or at least the past 2 mornings- he was ok today. So whenever he would walk by me, I would immediately turn a sad shade of green- he's lucky he didn't get puked on! Maybe it was just a "first days of school" thing. 'Cause if it continues, I'm gonna have to say something to him. I just can't handle that.
I also seem to have a belly that has popped out overnight! I need to get Randy to take a picture to start a belly archive. Maybe since I'm eating better I'll gain some weight back that I lost.
I'm still really tired, though today was better. I went to bed Monday evening at 8:00, when the sun was still up! I have 5 more days of class (woohooooo!) so if I can just make it through that, I should be good to go.
On a career note, I have an interesting little class this year. Last year's kids were SOOOOO good and well-behaved, so we knew we'd end up with a more challenging group than they were, and that has proven true. We have several little mischeif makers, but we've been riding them hard and laying down the law- lettin' 'em know we ain't playin'. It's always so hard to imagine bonding with a new class of kids at the beginning, but I know I will eventually. The rest of the school is incredible- our numbers are low with track 4 out, and the school is orderly and quiet and the cafeteria is relaxing and calm. I didn't think it possible, but we've really worked as a team to set down the rules and procedures and it seems to be working! Makes me really like my job again.
I am going to relax for a bit then do some studying. Sounds like a plan.

Consistency would be nice...

I am a bit tired of this roller coaster of queasiness. I would be ok if I could predict when I would feel icky. But I can't. I have no idea. For a while, it was mid-morning, when I got hungry, or when I ate too much. Some mornings, though, I feel fine. Sometimes when I eat, I feel fine. Usually when I get hungry, I do feel yicky. Today, I was doing ok (except for waking up with a headache), then I ate some pizza for lunch (not too much), and now I just wish the tile guy would finish working on my bathroom so that if I start feeling worse I can go lay on the floor in there. (why does it always feel good to lay on the bathroom floor when you are nauseous??!) I won't fit to lay on the powder room floor. When will this madness be over, I ask you?
I also seem to be in this stage where I don't really look pregnant, so sometimes its hard for me to remember that I am. And I still have this nagging feeling that something could still go wrong, so I guess I'm trying not to presume too much. Most people I work with know by now, so I get a lot of attention and congratulations from them, but it still doesn't seem real. I guess it will soon enough, right?
(and, by the way, I really wish the tile guy would hurry and finish. I don't like having weird workers in my house. I would hate to go hormonal on him and kick his ass out. =) )

First Trimester Woes

I've had a hard time updating this blog, and I'm hoping that once my classes are over (end of this month) things will calm down and I'll do a better job. Our ultrasound appointment was really cool! We could see the little heartbeat and our little blob with the big 'ol head. She said everything looks great and I go back on Aug. 8th for my next appointment. Hopefully a month after that we'll know the sex! That I am really looking forward to.
I'm about ready to be out of the first trimester. I feel queasy half the time, and I want to eat stuff that I can't. I can only eat small amounts at a time, and I haven't had that much of an appetite. Hence, I have lost about 4 pounds since I got pregnant. So, I'm not showing at all, even though I really want to be. But yet my pants are tight because my belly is rounding out, so I can't wear a lot of my old pants. I also have to get up in the middle of the night to pee, and that is getting old fast. People tell me that the second trimester is great, and that I'll feel good and be all happy and glowing. I certainly hope that is true. Right now I just want some normalcy, and it can't be good that school starts next week and I'm in classes and just have so much going on. I just keep thinking that as long as I can make it through the next 4 weeks or so I should be home free for a while.
I'm looking forward to the new school year- this year-round bit will take some getting used to, and I have to leave early on Tuesday and Thursday for the first 3 weeks, which I know will put a strain on my coworkers. This whole Sara going back to school thing has proven to be a big pain in my ass. It's almost over, though. Right??